Dating Sims and Other reasons why I'm going to die alone.

Just the fact this this guy exists drives me crazy

Ever notice how there's all these dating sims for women over in Japan but over here, It's weird for girls to play any kind of video game.  The ones we do get are usually accompanied with other kinds of gameplay and the romance takes a back seat.   I'm fine with Harvest Moon and Rune factory, but their man selection isn't the best.  Rune Factory 4 is better but it's probably the last game of the series since the company went bankrupt.
Most dating sims on the other hand are heavy in text and may or may not have any sort of gameplay besides that.  They're sort of like saucy, choose your own adventure books.  Hey, that actually doesn't sound that bad.  Over here though, the thought of pretending to date a fictional character is absolutely taboo and on the lowest rank of desperate.
It's not that odd of an idea though when you think of it.  It's like when you fall in love with a character or actor, these types of games just make it more interactive so it's not so one sided.  That's why technology is amazing.  These 2D characters actually want to bang you back.  Is it hurting more than helping though?

Geten no Hana

I sort of get lost when I start playing games.  I get sucked into that world and everything feels so real to me.  I'm not saying that all games are bad or that they're making me crazy.  After a traumatic experience, it's sometimes the only things that can get you out of the pain of every day life and PTSD.  Id rather live in my make believe world than remember all the horrible things that this life has thrown at me or become dependent on medication like my father was.  Do I keep up with school?  I've never been better!  I've never gotten such good grades in all my life.  Is it really making me loose sight of what's real and what's not?  of course not.  I know that it's just a game but that doesn't mean that the characters and situations aren't based off of people and situations that have happened before.  In a sense they have a potential to be real outside of the game.  Is it ruining my dating life?  Maybe, if I had a dating life.  My whole view of how men should act towards me have been determined by these games.  Is it unrealistic to expect these sort of actions from men?  All these characters are so beautiful, so perfect.  They have no real flaws and the ones that they do have are small and make them even more attractive.  In a way, they've ruined dating for me because I know that no matter who I date, I'll never find any one like these men.
I do think that there is hope for me though.  I've never had the opportunity to have any one like me or have a crush on me.  All throughout high school  (9 years ago) I felt like I was missing out on an important step to adulthood.  The only guy that I'd ever had a crush on turned down my advances and ever since then history seems to repeat it'self whenever I ask a guy out.  They all react the same and I can sense that they're afraid to even go on one date with me or hang out.  On the other hand, my mother has started to date again and tells me about her whirlwind romance.  The things she describes is just like these games.  It gave me hope that it's not about how real or fake these men are in dating sims, but when you find some one who's willing to invest their hole soul into you it naturally occurs.  That it's not made up or over dramatized in media.  It exists for that little bit.  While I may never have this kind of romance or any romance at all in my life, these games give me hope that that somewhere out there, someone is interested in me and that I just have to be my spunky, friendly self and wait.